I had a self-pity weekend that turned into an enlightened one. I spent it alone. I had a wonderful Friday night with the kids. Dropped them off to their Mom Saturday Morning, promptly at 8. I had one phone call from my wonderful father, Fred and then of course spoke with my kids as I do every night. Other than exchanging a few texts with Jen mainly about the site, I had no other communication with anyone.

I decided to take some of my own advice and revaluate some of the relationships in my life. Pulling back is, to say the least, not easy. Saturday was a depressing self-pity party. Sunday morning was starting the same way, however I knew I had to stop. I said a little prayer and wrote a little. I had some (a lot) housework to do. I went to my old I pod that I have set up in my kitchen. I have a collection of audio books on it. I said God send me the message you want me to hear and randomly clicked. He gave me God's Answers to Life's Difficult Questions by Rick Warren. It hit right where I needed it.

The audio started with the story of Jacob wrestling with an Angel. How God gets our attention by putting us in an uncomfortable and miserable situation when he is ready to get our attention to prepare us for change he wants in our lives. I am a big believer in life lessons and trials. They need to be gone through to grow and develop. Next up was a reminder to give my problems to God. Most of my recent focus when speaking with him has been directed at helping others and I just focused on fixing my issues myself.  I was also reminded to accept and admit my error and flaws and that I need Gods help and guidance to overcome them.

The next lesson was on depression. Then the story of Joseph and how he did kept his focus, did not get biter and trusted God’s plan for him. Basically stay away from self-pity and bitterness. This was truly what I needed to hear.

Then he put into my David’s mind, that he needed to call me. My boy called me and we talked for about 20 min. It uplifted me and the rest of my Sunday alone was rejuvenating.

I thought I should share this with you.  It is real easy to loose focus. Make God part of your daily plan. Talk to him about everything. He has your back.

Our biggest asset and biggest liability is the people we know. Prioritize people that prioritize you.  If someone you love is not showing you the love, is it worth your time to keep making it work? Are you keeping the relationship alive? How much of your time is spent keeping the two of you together. Could you not focus your energy else where and develop the more mutual relationships in your life. Maybe even be more productive? If they are meant to be in your life they will come back when they realize something important to them is missing.

So few days left till my world is lost for two years. So I have to spend as much time as I can with my Monkeys. I crashed early with them last night. I am working on several projects for the blog. I plan to get to started tonight. Everyone have a wonderful and blessed day! 

It is great to just stay at home and hang with the Monkeys. We added some friends into the mix last night and had a blast. We all stayed up late and nobody really wanted it to end but the sleepy started to take over.  Times like that are the ones to truly be cherished.

On another Note. Very Proud of our US Olympic team. They are kicking butt and taking names. In the spirit of competition of course. I am looking forward to the US VS Canada hockey showdown for the GOLD!